Category: self-conflict

Believe Again

December 15th has special meaning for me. It marks the date when God make me a promise that sparked my belief in something I had stopped hoping for years ago. That was all the way in 2019. And to be honest, after a rollercoaster ride, I stopped believing. Somewhere along the journey, my faith dissolved…

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Who has your ear?

A few weeks ago, the Lord said to me: Chanel, too many voices…. At first, I was confused and pondered on the meaning. As I reflected, I realized that many who heard about what I was doing had an opinion about how it could be fulfilled. Outside of the physical voices, I recognized something powerful.…

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A Game of Pretense

Earlier, I sat in the 40-Day Bible Study time that I’ve been doing with a friend. Before we started, she shared with me an experience that she had that had shocked her. In concluding her story, she made a statement along the lines of: Is it a normal thing? It isn’t normal for me for…

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How big of a trash can are you?

Everybody has little quirks. Yes quirks…you know those peculiar aspect of a person’s character or behaviour. Some are very cute and loveable while others are downright disgusting. Whilst others are in the middle and leave you feeling quite ambivalent about them. In essence, they are neither here nor there. Today I want to share with…

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6 Steps to Handling Doubt

A friend recently reached out to me with the following question: “How do you handle fading faith.” Luckily for her, I had recently gone through a season where I struggled with increasing doubts and unbelief (fading faith) regarding a promise God made to me. So here goes, 6 steps to handling doubt. Be self-aware. Label…

Discovering By Design, doubt, fading faith

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Stronger

Late December 2019, instead of changing into my swimwear and dashing into the water (after a hot 30-min walk), I found myself sitting on the banks of Rio Don Diego, Colombia, oddly reflective. I pondered the upcoming year and one of the paths I felt God was trying to set me on (at the time…

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The Price of Frustration

I hit my computer on three different occasions today! On the third hit, my spirit stopped me in my tracks with a “Wow! Wow! Wow! Atta girl! Stop! Something’s not right!” I paused and immediately did a self-assessment to identify what was the root cause of the behavior that went against the fruits of the…

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Who is in your bad?

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. In one of the first rounds I experienced, I felt like I had totally lost my footing. My first reaction was to feel sad, overwhelmed and lost. My perspective focused on the black and white where either things worked out the way I wanted (meaning a…

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A Way to Conquering Anger

Early in life I recognized two facts: I did not have a talent for cussing (quarreling and cursing). Since I never entered a match that I was bound to lose, I avoided the back and forth trading of barbs and curses. When angry, I lacked the time or patience to beat around the bush. When…

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