I must say that I had the epiphany of a lifetime yesterday. I mean, this is the kind of enlightenment that makes you want to cry and rejoice all at once. Man I don’t even know which one to do first. All I can say is that God is truly incredible!

Let’s get into the meat of the matter. If you have been following my blog for quite a while, you will remember how I was bitching from last year into a few months ago about a guy who had done some serious damage to my self-esteem and emotional stability. I haven’t been complaining about him lately because, this butterfly had been learning to fly again and enjoying life afresh.

Yesterday I had an incredible conversation. I think this was the point where God knew I was ready to stop being stubborn and accept His revelation. In this conversation, someone who knew this young man personally, listed out all his faults and characteristics. As I listened, I found myself thinking how lucky I was not to have to deal with him personally any more! And check this out, all these characteristics and faults were the opposite of what I usually pray for in a husband! I was astounded when the revelation came to me. All this time I had spent bitching and moaning about getting my heart broken and being miserable and stubborn after being disobedient, yet God had still been guiding me!

When the epiphany hit me, I clearly heard God say to me “you see what I was keeping you from?” Can I tell you, this is the best “I told you so!”, I’ve ever gotten! In fact, in the mood I am, I owe this guy a HUGE THANK YOU! Can you imagine a ” Thank you for breaking my heart”? I owe God an even BIGGER APOLOGY!

I am amazed because even though this was a situation that God didn’t want for me, He turned it around for good for me. I emerged from this situation stronger and more grounded than when I went in. I am discovering the young lady I was always meant to be.

God truly has our best interests at heart even when we are being annoying disobedient bratty children. Lord I’m amazed that You love me.

XOXO
Chañel.

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